It has finally happened, the bandwidth has shrunk down for the first time. The bandwidth for work that is. I felt that i could just keep going full steam with all the different work that i had picked upon. Council, alumni pending affairs, corporate conclave, academics and of course my jogging :) Well everything has finally converged to one point where you gotta choose. I had gone about it in the usual manner of quite background work. Many near me often question the mindless work done with out ayone's knowledge but the rewards are satisfying!
I had personally decided some things to be done when i had come here. I believe i have achieved most of them an maybe more. Later i had felt that the insti should should get the kind of respect that it deserves truly. The cibbing and mud slinging is not reflective of the real stature of the students passed out of here. So the campaign for NYCC an the like. Along the way i have met like minded people and it is a pleasure to have worked with them.
It feels good to know such people who would just stake everything for their and maybe your dream too. No questions, hours at end and all thankless work done! That is true effiiency and potential. Just plain belief in what should be and working towards it. We maybe called dreamers maybe foolish to be working on something that no one else cares about but eventually if you do not follow your dream then life is not worth it. Simply useless.
You feel scared to even mention it, lest the wind carries it away with itself never to return. It has happened before and it is difficult to arise out of it again. But it all doesn't matter in the end..Cos the bandwidth is infinite for such work :)
Some new quotes that i penned down here:
"In all the beauty of life
So easy to lose in all its strife;
I kept winning the battles to soar
But lost out on one great war!
Maybe the evening star will show the way
Which is to be my main stay,
So that the harried might return
To the solace of the homeward journ"
The Deluge and the chaffing!
Pearls of Wisdom!
One of the very few people who matter in my life told me this today:
1. "You are not what you think you are, but you are what you think!": Your thoughts invariably make your person and your entire thought process.
2. "What you do in your free time determines how you do in your busiest times": come to think of it, I have been told many a times since school that my most important habit is to stay extremely cool in most adverse situations. I attribute this to my patient swimming for hours at an end and also to the fact that i had many seen too many things in life too early.
Very important note to self: Things just don't happen randomly, they are a product of what you have done and what have you been thinking. It is all like a code for a program, the output is always exactly what you have written.
Then what about GOD? Well, he gets to decide when to press the ENTER key!!!
Rekindled!
Over the past week, i have been disturbed. Not for anything serious, but just those moments when you inspect, introspect and evaluate. Sudenly the course of things seems murky, you doubt your own actions and the general scheme of things that you have created for your self.
I spent much time talking with some very close friends, reading up truly great words and as usual speaking to my mother. Her words remind me of all the things that i truly want, show me the path to take. Some time alone spent jogging and the usual pranayam has made things clearer. Now it is much better! In fact i feel rekindled for life again and the enthusiasm to wake up every morning and work towards something has come back. It is time to bet everything for a chance at something that you wanted, time to cherish and time to enjoy each and every moment as it comes.
I have pushed myself to the work levels that i want and now is the time to push the envelope and push myself to be really the best that i really can.
